Musings

Blame - it's not the game I play any more.

I am angry about Brett Kavanaugh being appointed to the Supreme Court, despite being accused of sexual assault, where he will be able to make decisions about, say, whether women have the right to an abortion FOR THE REST OF HIS LIFE. I am angry that the woman who accused him was mocked by (...Read more)

D.I.Y and D.I.E

Those of you familiar with anarchist punk culture may know the phrase ‘DIY or die’ - a battle cry for people to eschew the corporate world, to take back power and agency and do things for themselves. The problem I have with anarchist battle cries in general is their fairly aggressive  (...Read more)

I Want To Ride My Bicycle

For me, bicycles are a symbol of freedom, and are forever tied up with childhood. The first time you learn to ride a bike, with your dad holding onto the seat and then letting go but telling you he's still holding on (probably the first time I realised that adults don't always tell the  (...Read more)

Freedom and the F-word

Something that I'm learning from all the reading, listening and watching that I'm doing about addiction is that there is no convenient, one-explanation-fits-all reason for why people drink, use drugs or develop other harmful addictions. It differs for everybody, and involves a wide  (...Read more)

Connection: It's Not Just About The Wifi

It’s been a tricky decision, but after much discussion, debate and dickering (on my part anyway!) we have called an end to our nomadic wanderings and come to rest in Berlin for the next six months. It was hard for me to come to terms with the fact that we wouldn’t be travelling any more  (...Read more)

The Art of Letting Go

One of the most important (and therefore obviously most tricky) things I’m trying to figure out is how to deal with stressful situations now I’m no longer smoking. I think that a lot of us use external substances in some form or another, to some degree or other, to help us deal with  (...Read more)

Not-So-Great Expectations

One of my new addictions that I’m using to help me get over my old addictions is listening to podcasts about addiction (and feminism, which isn’t super-relevant to this blog but I just wanted to say that listening to smart funny women talk about how to smash the patriarchy is empowering  (...Read more)

Practicing Non-Reactivity & Denial Of The Moment!

For some time now, I've been observing how our reactions to events and situations are often over-reactive, exaggerated or out of our control. When it comes to how we deal with life experiences, most of us are almost totally conditioned by our previous experiences and/or expectations of (...Read more)

Two steps forwards, one step back

Sometimes it feels like no matter how hard I'm trying, no matter how much I'm learning, I'm just not getting anywhere. The issue is that everything's fine when everything's fine, right? And it's like I get lulled into a false sense of security. "I'm doing great, I've got this problem sorted,  (...Read more)

Refusing The Sacrament: Non-participation In The Rituals Of Our Cult-ure

One thing I have always has a problem with is rules. They annoy me. If I can see a positive reason for a rule existing, then thats negotiable, understandable, even agreeable  - but if the rule (usually instigated by some form of hierarchy) appears to be defending an entity’s greed,  (...Read more)

If not that, then what?

We’ve spent a lot of time thinking about what it is that we don't want to be doing, the addictions that are having negative and toxic effects on our lives, and how we don't want to be living. For a lot of people, this is as far as it goes - knowing that something isn't right,  (...Read more)